a reminder

He was right

How I hate it when he is too right

I made efforts, but not much, far from enough

I did not do my best, and I have not done my best for so many things, so long

Yeah I took those as toys, but without them I am nothing

In effect I already have had far more things than a light-hearted person deserves

I need to carry this night onto the rest of my life

To bear in mind the feeling of repetitively failing to curb tears and thus unable to sleep

Failure itself does not matter

The worst part is realizing you could have done better